I’m 20 today. It feels like a big number, like I’m no longer a kid. In more ways than one, I still feel like one. I still… Read more “20.”
Tag: journal
wide-eyed dreamer
It’s been two years, since the wide-eyed dreamer left home, in search of another. little did she know, that she’ll loathe what she once longed for that… Read more “wide-eyed dreamer”
Snowflake
The ninth of December came with snow, the first snowfall of the year, and With it, came a sense of warmth, of belonging It brought hot chocolate… Read more “Snowflake”
Ten Months
I didn’t think we’d come this far. I didn’t know I could go this long without wrecking it with someone. Or bailing. That’s what I do, When… Read more “Ten Months”
Inadequate
I’d never tell you this. My pride aside, I worry and wonder myself to madness. I worry I’m not good enough for you; I wonder what it… Read more “Inadequate”
Maybe I Love You
Maybe I love you. Maybe I don’t. I think it when I’m lying next to you, I think it in an empty bed. I never say it… Read more “Maybe I Love You”
A Cry For Help
I don’t know if I’m okay. I don’t know how I feel. If I’ve been feeling anything lately. The last time I was truly happy was when… Read more “A Cry For Help”
How I Break My Own Heart
The truth is I break my own heart before anyone else could. I am continually learning how to be in a relationship and not lose my mind… Read more “How I Break My Own Heart”
Stay
Darling, I want you to stay There are things I don’t say enough, or ever I never tell you I truly, really care; I never tell you… Read more “Stay”
The City That Saved Me
This time I’m writing, not to an ex-lover or my current beau, but a place. It’s a love letter nonetheless. To the city that saved me, the… Read more “The City That Saved Me”
Silent Screams
Trigger Warning: Sexual Assault. In the moment, I lost the ability to speak. I writhed frantically under him, as he continued kissing my neck. I recalled… Read more “Silent Screams”
If We Happen to Cross Paths
Time stops, just for us. The world spins; people rush past us. A cinematic blur. It’s just you and me. Your eyes meet mine; both shy away… Read more “If We Happen to Cross Paths”
What I Mean When I Say We’re Meant to Be
I believe in soulmates, I believe in true love, I believe in everything pure and magical. It’s just how I’ve always looked at the world, through the… Read more “What I Mean When I Say We’re Meant to Be”
The Art of Not Caring
He isn’t my fairytale. Our love isn’t magic. It didn’t change my life in an instant. In fact, I was barely sure about it when I agreed… Read more “The Art of Not Caring”
Shall We Take The Leap?
This is me, for once, protecting my heart. You don’t understand it, you mistake the distance between us for my lack of interest but sweet boy, I… Read more “Shall We Take The Leap?”
Everything I’ve Wanted to Say to You in the Past Month
I never watched the last episode of Stranger Things 2 (what kind of a sadist breaks up with someone right after watching the second-to-last episode of a… Read more “Everything I’ve Wanted to Say to You in the Past Month”
Come Back, Be Here
It comes back in flashbacks, but you never do. 3am. I wake up, and don’t reach out for you. My mind has now, finally, accepted you’re not… Read more “Come Back, Be Here”
Take Me Home
It’s 2am, and I’ve never felt more alone. It’s 2am, and all I can think of is the sun rising back home. I’m still learning how… Read more “Take Me Home”
A Story To Tell
I’d tell them about the very first night, the night we met. Moonlit faces and too much alcohol in our veins. I’d tell them how I never… Read more “A Story To Tell”
For Old Times’ Sake
I’m home again. The life I called my own, the life I left behind. The place I call home. I’ve spent four months in a distant world,… Read more “For Old Times’ Sake”
Almost Lovers, Almost Strangers
I come to this café way too often, I basically live here. The baristas recognize me, and remember my order. I subconsciously remember their work schedules like,”… Read more “Almost Lovers, Almost Strangers”
Just Another Sad Poem
I spend way too much time tugging at memories and pieces of you, to form another piece of poetry. I relive endings over and over, cry for a… Read more “Just Another Sad Poem”
Letting Go of the Idea of Us
The day you left, I confronted my demons. They were mine, none yours. The day you left, I shattered. Fragments of my heart; you walked out with… Read more “Letting Go of the Idea of Us”
I’m Working On Being Whole
I’m barely whole; a void that only seems to grow. A widening gap swallowing me completely; has it always been so dark in here? I don’t know… Read more “I’m Working On Being Whole”
Let’s Fly Away
There you are again, in the dark. There’s something about the darkness that calls out to you, embraces you slowly and then swallows you entirely. You’re getting… Read more “Let’s Fly Away”
The Embrace of Familiarity
Every time it all goes wrong, the first place that comes to mind is a safe, happy place. Home. The streets call out to me, the people… Read more “The Embrace of Familiarity”
“Set Me Free”, The Soul Cries
When I see myself, I see a hollow heart. A heart that’s tired of bleeding, pouring out all the time and giving only to get no sign… Read more ““Set Me Free”, The Soul Cries”
I Still Wonder
I wish I fucking knew. That there wouldn’t be another you. I wouldn’t have acted so cool, so casual. I would’ve done it all differently. The way… Read more “I Still Wonder”
The End
It starts with a look, a kiss, or maybe a funny joke. It starts with casualty, neither of us knowing where it’s heading. That’s the most exciting… Read more “The End”
Home
For as long as I could remember, I was fascinated with the idea of escapism. Not carrying any baggage, just getting on the plane and not knowing… Read more “Home”
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